The little affliction

as my brain is ready to burst with overflowing words to write on my god forsaken blog, my uncontrollable emotions have let me down once again.

as sun begins to set and the clock ticks away to a brand new day, my heart pounds ferociously as another day has gone by.

as my brain apprises me that is preposterous to achieve it, my heart apprises me otherwise. "Things happened for a reason", it says. (A common phrase that comforts the soul)

2 years passed and I can remark that studying in Glasgow has made me into someone I thought I will never be. I noticed, I became quieter and not as frolicsome as I used to be. Surviving and doing things on my own. Maybe it is the sign of growing up. Guess is just survival of the fittest.
I will not deny that I miss Glasgow alot. I foresee that I will return to that city where memorable memories were created.

As I await for this chapter of my life to end, another is about to begin.

Days

A few more days.. Feelings..

Hold on

Hold on to me tight...

We are stronger here together...

My Time

forlorn....

Feelings

It has been great so far

Just do not like the fact that time is running out.

That we are about to graduate

That we need to separate soon.

That everything will be ending soon

4 years of Pharmacy

4 years of great and ever-growing friendship

4 years of the best experience

We all have grown so much

Learned so much

Love each other so much

I wonder at this moment, next year, where will we be?

where would life take us?

what is our future?

I really do not like the idea.

down memory lane

We GOT CLOSER..

Benji

Dearest Black Lab has been infected with virus for about 3-4 months now..

and just got a news from back home that everyone has given up hope..

it has been way too long..

they said it is best to put him to sleep...

not another dog..

I havent even met this pup...

But of cos we have to do what is best for this pup..

There is no bond between this pup and I, but the thought of it still makes me cry..

First Barney.. Now Benji?

I shall pray for the best..

Barney, if you meet him in doggie heaven.. please take care of him.. I know you will.. :)

dearest pup, I hope you will get better.. I really wanna meet you.. :(

p/s: I miss you Barney.. I sometimes forget that you have already left me..

You

You just you...

Just plain you...

I think you are the strongest person I have ever met...

After all these years, now I am so far away, I still seek for inspiration and motivation from you...

You might not know this, but

your blog,

your stories

and your pictures

have helped many out there..

me included...

Eventhough, you have been through alot,

you still managed to look up and move on..

Still keeping that sweet smile on your face

and never failed to make others happy...

I think I have known you practically all my life,

and I am glad to know such a person like you..

I wish you the best in your future and in your life,

bring more happiness and joy to others,

Brand New Year for a Brand new blog..

I feel truly blessed for having such wonderful family and friends..

My family had a birthday cake and red eggs for my birthday in Malaysia and skyped with me while singing to me.. truly wonderful feeling..

Had birthday celebration here in Glasgow with great friends..

Dinner and games.. and booze..

Thank you to those who came and celebrated with me..

and not forgetting my juniors who brought me to their house to surprise me with cookies, present and a card.. in the middle of my drinking game.. :P (sorry for being drunk that time)

and not forgetting the firemen who came and celebrated my birthday too.. :D ahahhaha..

New Year's Eve was also spectacular.. Went to Clyde Arc for a mini fireworks.. :D

and of cause not forgetting those who supported me when my dearest Barney passed away..

Thank you Eunice for accompanying me through the night eventhough it was 5am in the morning.. Appreciate it alot!!!

Thank you Mina and Jared for skyping with me.. and made me laugh the whole conversation.. took my mind off Barney awhile..

Thank you to everyone who sent their condolences on fb and msgs and skype..

Thank you Amy's house, Fuiwei's house and Eunice's house for inviting me over for dinner so that I do not have to be alone for dinner.. :)

Thank you Vivian for listening when I needed to tell someone the problem that was bothering me.. (i think you know what was it) :)

and today, thank you Yling for the amazing birthday card all the way from Germany.. it really made me cry..

Thank you for the wonderful Nasi Lemak! CHIEW VIEN and to those who helped her.. :)

Is a brand new year.. it started a little rough for me.. i know many would say he was just a dog.. but to me, we was family.. a brother to me.. :)..

Cheers! brand new year!!

Football Club

I love them.. Never fail to make me happy.. Never fail to make me laugh...

Great (almost) 4 years of Pharmacy..

Awesome birthday celebration..

Awesome support..

Awesome cooks...

Awesome bakers...

Awesome friends.. :)

I love you

As I write this post, my legendary German Spitz has finally taken his last breath. Barney, was born on the 11^th of June 1997 and came to our family as a pup. He was just the size of my palm. Very adorable and cute. Friendly as ever and happy as ever. We grew up together. He watched me grow as I watched him grow. I remember I used to bully him a lot when he was a pup but I treated him with respect, as he got older. Everyday after school, he would wait for me at the gate with excitement and when my dad comes home from work, he would run in the house telling us that dad is home. He would always be there for me. As he got older, he got slower and slightly deaf. But still as adorable as ever. He was very famous among our friends because he is the friendliest dog anyone could have.

He was extremely jealous when my family brought in another dog recently but we still treated him as the KING!! :)

As time goes by, we could see that his time was coming.

I received a phone call from my mum (UK time 3.30am) on the 3^rd of January 2012 telling me that Barney was very sick. He had spleen cancer and that operation on him would be too risky. The only option was to put him to sleep. I was shocked as hell as I didn’t see this coming.

The first thing I told him was “I asked you to wait for me to come back in July”.

But everyone was there to support him. Telling him that we will be okay and it would be okay for him to let go. I watched him suffer in pain and finally they took him to the hospital.

He was definitely the one that brought happiness to my childhood and the one I would tell all my secrets.

He was definitely the one that showed unconditional love and care to all of us.

He was definitely the one I would never forget.

He was my dog, my partner, my company and my best friend.

Dear Barney, I know you are in dog heaven now, we will miss you very much and thank you for coming to the family. We love you very much. Thank you for celebrating my 21^st birthday with me.